I don't know what will make me feel "successful". I'm happy with my job, but it's definitely not something I want to be doing for the next 20 years. I'm happy with our house, but it definitely needs some improvements. I'm happy with myself, but I could definitely use some improvements too.
Maybe that's what makes you successful? Knowing what your limitations are and where you need improvement? I'm in a place in my life right now where I don't know what exactly comes next. The last few years have been so focused on the next thing - get married, get a house, have a baby - that now it's a bit of what next? I'm happy with things being the way they are for now, but what is the next box to tick off?
Do I go back to school?
Do I focus on paying off debts?
Do I take it easy for a few years until Vivian starts school?
Do I look for opportunities to earn extra income at home?
Will any of these things make me happier?
I'm the type of person who likes to have something to look forward to - a goal in mind. And I guess right now I don't necessarily have that.
But maybe that's not such a bad thing. Maybe I need to just enjoy things now, and not try to rush things.
I do like a project, though.